what's up people. i feel more alive now that my blog is, too.
i can't believe many things today. okay- so there's two things.

one, i spent five hours baking bread.
how stupid can i be? five hours?
thank god it didn't turn out horrendous. it was edible!
i can't wait for my breakfast tomorrow!

two, for spending close to an hour planning out my outfits for new year.
hey- it takes time to look good, alright?
i even got out a list of stuff i needa buy, and the things that will coordinate it.
i feel like some coordinator.
haha- no, seriously.
you guys must think that i'm joking, so i should show you all my awesome list of things to buy.
it's kinda long too :/

i'm going shopping tomorrow! for the final stuff for new year.
it doesn't feel as festive this year, i don't know why.
but getting new things feels awesome!
i'll update with the stuff that i'll be getting/have gotten tomorrow.
gosh, i feel so tempted to eat instant noodles and pretzels now.

i'm also sad, angry & depressed.
not coping well with my amaths. how could i have failed the test?
i really felt :/
wasn't a great feeling. i can only work harder now, right?
after getting the 'O's, then i'll think about my dream.
even my mum agree with me that i at least have to complete my secondary school education,
and have a perfect ending for it. then i can happily start another phase of my life.
well, just wasn't in the mood for laughing and stuff,
so that made me bake.
baking is fun. except for baking bread.
but then again, this way- i don't have to rely on gardenia anymore. yay me.

life still goes on, doesn't it?
i'll just have to see where it takes me and where i'll take it.


"Every night, thinking and tossing and turning, I can’t sleep
Maybe I’ve known all along this would happen in the end
I close my eyes yet I can’t let go of this dream
If you’d just leave him and come to me"

- Taeyang, Wedding Dress

how long has it been since i felt that way?